I feel like a common trend for me over the next two years will be this constant feeling like there just aren’t enough hours in the day, and that I’m constantly behind in my homework. Even if I spend an entire weekend reading and making flashcards on 130 pages from my Marketing textbook, I still feel like there are so many other things I need to accomplish before I can feel satisfied. Today I’m realizing that I need to change my perception of what it means to be on top of my homework. With seven courses a term, there is absolutely no way I can do every subject every day and still feel prepared for the two midterms that I have coming up on Thursday. I can’t say no to exercise just because it means precious minutes out of my homework time, and I need to realize that it’s okay if I want to take a break every now and then.
My commute is still a huge issue for me, but fortunately after this week it will change. I will say that the thought of moving in the middle of a week where I have two huge tests is kind of stressful and daunting to me, but I’m combatting moving stress with making a Pinterest board on small space organization. It’s making me really excited to become as space-efficient as I can once I move into my new apartment. I think after this week I’ll be settled into more of a rhythm and I can devote one day of the week to each of my courses and spend weekend afternoons at the Central branch of the VPL and drink coffee all day and most importantly not spend 3 hours on a bus every weekday. I don’t think I’ve felt like an actual human being in weeks.
Yesterday I decided that after three hours of reading my textbook I badly needed to get outside. I went into the Urban Forest behind my parents’ house and I just ran and ran because the longer I ran the longer I could avoid returning to my homework, and I ended up running 8km. I think I’ve only ever run 8km one other time in my life, and it was sunny and easy and I made some excellent progress in my favourite running app and it was lovely. It makes me think that I could easily run a 10km sometime in the near future. I’m going to have to find some inspiring running routes once I’m in the city.
Tonight I’m taking my sister to see the Maze Runner because we both loved the book and it’s another way for me to just chill for a hot minute on the homework. Until then, MATH!